Queen of Cups
As I look at the card I see the kingfisher as prominent and remember the rare times I have seen the kingfisher and how it is like a flash of blue colour and then he is gone - this is so similar to how intuition can work - connecting it with the keyword, a flash of bright inspiration and this its gone, I love the connection. Also I see Glastonbury Tor in the distance to the card, a place that has been the source of transformation for me in the past, powerful shifting energy clearing me of old patterns. I am looking forward to traveling this card.
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I walk into the card....
I look up at the black berries surrounding the card and pick one an eat it – it tastes sweet and fresh, perfectly ripe. I ask for its knowledge as I take its energy into my body.
“We are ripe – the perfect time for picking – we tell you to listen to the timing for all things – there is a subtle energy with every event that is its 'best' time for action. As you listen and become aware of these timing energies you will find you can take the pickings of your life and harvest your rewards when they are at their maximum, neither over ripe when they have lost some of their goodness, nor green and unripe – hard to stomach and digest. Your picking of us also represents the taking in of the information and experiencing it – this card is about the experience of life rather than the understanding of life from an intellectual point of view. You needed to consume us to know us and it is the same with areas of life where you need to consume the experience not just read about it or talk about it – but really be it, and then you have the knowledge within you.” “Thank you blackberries for your harvest and nutrition here on both the physical and spiritual level – I understand your gift and thank you for sharing so freely of yourself.”
I turn to the kingfisher who is flying around me, close by, in a most unusual fashion. It is as though he is hovering around me to tell me something. I am grateful he is not as elusive as he is in the wild usually. “Hello kingfisher do you have a message for me?” I am a bird of great beauty but I need not the beholder to know this. Know your beauty transcends all opinions, that your beauty is a state of mind and that will come with you regardless of age, or even physical attributes. Beauty is a state of being. I am brightly coloured and it is my nature to be so. You see my beauty easily when I allow myself to be seen, for I am different from the others – your beauty too is due to its difference from others, as it is for everyone of you, your uniqueness and your spirit, is your beauty. As you come to know this and experience its reality, your fears about image, growing older and change of the body will disappear and your self love increase. Also your need to be seen will diminish, not that you will stop being seen you understand, almost the reverse, you will be noticed more when it is the right time, but you will also be able to be free to be yourself in whatever situation you are in.” “Thank you kingfisher” I say – “I have a question though, as you come to know your beauty how to you stop yourself being trapped and caged for it?” “You speak of protection and of how to be who you are without withholding your beauty and power from the world. Your protection is your honouring yourself and your ability to be able to hide, as you do not need to display yourself to be yourself, as my beauty is seen only rarely by those who would wish me harm, to trap or capture me, I will be elusive. I do not go against myself to do this though. I use my beak as necessary to feed myself of my needs so too, you need to use your unique talents and skills to feed your needs – you will find if you follow your true heart you have exactly the right combination of skills to be exactly yourself, though if you follow others ways you will find yourself lacking as your way of being is yours alone others can show you parts of yourself but none can show you all of yourself. ”
“Thank you kingfisher, you hold, and have shared, a lot of knowledge with me here and it makes a lot of sense to me – thank you for your answers. ”
The kingfisher flies off. I know he has said what he needed to to me and I look ahead to the queen of cups, she seems away in rapture of her own being. I watch for a while allowing her energy to touch me. She is half immersed in water and holds a cup – as if she has been drinking from the water she is in – I feel she is experiencing the energy of the water to know more of this side of her nature, she seems so happy in it, that somehow its expansiveness and boundarylessness gives her a freedom beyond what she can experience in her own body – so she is being one with the water in order to explore her own depths. I sense a helping relationship between the two.
“Hello your majesty” I say gently as I approach and walk into the water too – it seems cool but not terribly cold, quite a comfortable place to be. “Hello” she says – I am not sure whether this was a telepathic communication or whether she actually spoke but it seems not to matter. “If you want to know me then experience me, for it is through knowing the part of yourself that is me that you will gain the most knowledge about what I am to you, I am not one for talking, but for feeling and sensing. As I become one with the water here I am knowing my own emotional nature and depths. You do the same and see what you are given to know at this time.”
“Thank you oh Queen I will indeed – be you and the water and see who I am through this.” I feel at this point that the kingfishers knowledge was important to be able to let go of the boundaries of self to learn whilst also knowing that I am who I am and that I am not water or the Queen, but myself experiencing this aspects of me. It feels like a warning not to get lost in others experience of life to forget or devalue your own, but to empathise to enhance your own self knowing.
I am the queen and the water and I feel my boundaries dissolve as I become one with the water and allow myself to sense the waterfalls over at one end of this lake rushing fast and furiously down towards a pool at the bottom them onwards to the grand sea, it is exhilarating and rejuvenating to feel this energy I simultaneously experience the peace and stillness of this lake and feel a sense of the lake experiencing me through the image of my body upon its surface. We are learning together in some way. I feel the sun beating down on the lake surface and molecules of myself as water rising up into the air and expanding to an even great degree. It seems so miraculous that I can experience such expansion and can move so easily so fast wherever there is space and there is so much of it. I travel up towards the Tor and condense on the hard stone, I sense it is early morning, and everything is covered with me – in dew. I sense the Queen with me in the water here and ask her if she has anything to show me. “As we sit and wait, there is peace.... ” She says “What are we waiting for?” I ask her, She says – “It is experience we are requiring – sometimes this is just as it is and we are waiting for the experience of waiting, to show us its gifts, sometimes it will be experience of another nature and the waiting is the preparation rather than the experience itself.” I find myself sitting on the seat in the Tor in silence the air is cool and there is a stillness about me and I know I need to still cool space in my life at the moment. I see a connection with the waiting and the preparation in my life currently where there is a good deal of waiting and will be for some time, yet also within this there are experiences which will inform the future decision that will be made. I am appreciating being in the now from these messages.
I ask the Queen about the emotional transformations that have happened here for me in the past and she says “Water is also tears and with tears come healing.” As I sit as a water droplet on the bench, I feel I become my own tears of the past as well as others tears of the past present and future – there feels a nurturing quality in my role as water as tears, that I am giving permission for the healing and release to take place. Releasing people from the trap of thinking everything has to be fine and showing them that everything just is as it is and that feelings are not to be feared.
I sit for a while in tranquility here, as water, tears, myself and the queen, then I know it is time for me to return and integrate the learning I have experienced. I thank all these parts of me and their outer counterparts, and find myself in my own body at the top of the tor. I walk out of the tower and look over the surrounding areas I take a deep breath of air and water droplets, and find I am transported back to the card entrance... I take another breath and walk out of the card in gratitude and peace.
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